Kamu.

I'm not a girl who easily fall in love with a guy, but I'm a girl who easily like a guy. There are some differences, are there not? There are.

After a long time that I haven't been in love, there was a guy who made foot prints on my heart. But have you ever felt in love with someone who doesn't love you back? Or someone who doesn't understand what you feel about him? I have. I'm on it. I am.

Have you ever been in a hard situation that makes you down? Have you ever felt like "I can't"? Have you ever felt very happy and you don't know someone who wants to know the reason why? Have you ever had someone who keep supporting you on what you do? Have you ever felt special just because you draw something? Have you ever felt special just because you're the reason why they're happy?

.....

I have.

I have been in a hard situation that makes me down, and he was there to cheer me up.

I have been felt like "I can't", and he was there to convince me that i could do it and told me that he believes in me.

I have been felt so happy and I don't know someone who wants to know the reason why, and he was there to listen all of my story.

I had someone who keep supporting me on everything I do, yes that was him.

I have been felt special just because I draw something for him, and he was saying that, that was the cutest thing he has ever seen in his whole life.

I have been felt special just because he told me that I'm the reason why he is happy.

There are his words that made like this, that made me finally do it and it was success.

"ah people in film can not be shy! u must do what it takes to make ur film as good as possible! haha"

I can't even say anything but thank you. So that's true, if people says that there is always one person behind someone's success. And yes, that someone is him. He's the one who kept giving me a support, he's the one who kept telling me "i believe you can do it zulfa :)", and he's the one who kept telling me "you're the reason why i'm happy :)".

What now?

I don't even talk to him anymore. Why? It caused by me. Why did I do it? Just because I don't wanna get in dilemma for some stupid reasons. I am so regret to say those things to him. Sometimes I wish i could undo what I've been said to him.

And this is what he was saying..

"hmmm it is difficult to know it is almost impossible we will ever be together. but still. its hard to let go something u care for that makes u happy"

And now, I just wanted to say that I have been missing you so much.

:'(

Love,

Zulfa