Kamu.

I'm not a girl who easily fall in love with a guy, but I'm a girl who easily like a guy. There are some differences, are there not? There are.

After a long time that I haven't been in love, there was a guy who made foot prints on my heart. But have you ever felt in love with someone who doesn't love you back? Or someone who doesn't understand what you feel about him? I have. I'm on it. I am.

Have you ever been in a hard situation that makes you down? Have you ever felt like "I can't"? Have you ever felt very happy and you don't know someone who wants to know the reason why? Have you ever had someone who keep supporting you on what you do? Have you ever felt special just because you draw something? Have you ever felt special just because you're the reason why they're happy?

.....

I have.

I have been in a hard situation that makes me down, and he was there to cheer me up.

I have been felt like "I can't", and he was there to convince me that i could do it and told me that he believes in me.

I have been felt so happy and I don't know someone who wants to know the reason why, and he was there to listen all of my story.

I had someone who keep supporting me on everything I do, yes that was him.

I have been felt special just because I draw something for him, and he was saying that, that was the cutest thing he has ever seen in his whole life.

I have been felt special just because he told me that I'm the reason why he is happy.

There are his words that made like this, that made me finally do it and it was success.

"ah people in film can not be shy! u must do what it takes to make ur film as good as possible! haha"

I can't even say anything but thank you. So that's true, if people says that there is always one person behind someone's success. And yes, that someone is him. He's the one who kept giving me a support, he's the one who kept telling me "i believe you can do it zulfa :)", and he's the one who kept telling me "you're the reason why i'm happy :)".

What now?

I don't even talk to him anymore. Why? It caused by me. Why did I do it? Just because I don't wanna get in dilemma for some stupid reasons. I am so regret to say those things to him. Sometimes I wish i could undo what I've been said to him.

And this is what he was saying..

"hmmm it is difficult to know it is almost impossible we will ever be together. but still. its hard to let go something u care for that makes u happy"

And now, I just wanted to say that I have been missing you so much.

:'(

Love,

Zulfa

Beautiful Angel

You. I can't even find a word to describe how amazing you are. You are more than a human. Yes, you are an angel.

You know, when I still live in heaven, God kept telling me about you. I didn't understand about what God was talking about. God kept telling me that one day, I had to go out. That I had to go to one planet, called Earth. I was like Earth? What kind of place is that? Can I just please stay here with you? I don't wanna go, I wanna stay here with you, I wanna stay in this beautiful place. God, please? Can I?

You know what God was saying to me? God said, that God would give me an angel. And I was like 'An Angle? No! I wanna stay here. Who will sing to me when I'm about to sleep? And I heard, that Earth is a cruel place. Who will look after me? I'm scared....'. And God told me that this angel would look after me, would make me feel safe, would sing to me when I was about to sleep. God convinced me that I would be okay, cause my angel would look after me, and God told me that my angel, would love me with all her heart, and I would get an affection and love from her. Then I asked God "What should I call her?"

God said "MOM"

I love you, mum. You're more than a human. You're an angel to me. You're a heroine. You're my biggest fan. You're my real best friend. Yes, you're everything to me.

Too much sacrifices that you have done for me, you've sacrificed your life, your energy, your money and everything, just to see me smile.

Mum, I don't know if I could do something in return for you. Cause when I asked you about it, you just gave me a smile, and said "No, darling, just don't hurt me, and be nice, that's more than enough". My God, that's it? That's all what you want after you sacrificed everything for me? Mum, I promise you, I will make you proud. I will make you proud to have me as I proud to have you in my life.

I love you. I really love you. Yes, I really do.

Z

Aku Suka Kamu. Kamu?

"Perbedaan aku dan kamu itu apa sih? Kita sama-sama hidup di Bumi. Di bawah langit yang sama. Kita juga sama-sama manusia. Oh, aku tau. Perbedaan aku dan kamu itu, apa yang aku rasakan, kamu tidak merasakannya."

"Pertama kali petikan gitar mu ku dengar, pada saat itu lah pertama kali aku jatuh cinta padamu"

"Aku suka saat kamu menyisipkan *:)* saat kita lagi chat. Entah kenapa, aku juga membayangkan wajah mu tersenyum saat mengucapkan kata-kata itu"

"Aku buka sampah yang kalau sudah tidak enak, langsung dibuang. Misalpun kamu menganggap aku sampah, akan lebih baik, jika kamu membuangku dengan cara yang baik, ditaruh dengan hati-hati. Bukan dilempar."

Entah ada angin apa, jari jemari dan hati gue, mendorong gue untuk menulis tentang Cinta. Everybody knows lah, cinta itu ada pahit dan manis. Ada yang manis dulu, baru pahit dan begitupun sebaliknya. Kadang, cinta pun palsu. Bukan cinta atau sayang di hati, melainkan hanya di mulut.

Ada saat dimana rasa sayang kita terhadap seseorang sedang pada puncaknya, tapi orang yang kita sayang menghancurkan dengan mudahnya seperti membalik sebuah kertas. Apa yang kita rasakan? Pastinya sedih. Atau kadang rasa nya kita ingin memutar waktu dimana saat hubungan itu sedang berjalan dengan indahnya.

Pernah ngerasain gak saat dimana seseorang telah berhasil membuat kita jatuh cinta kepada nya, dan pada akhirnya kita hanya dilupakan begitu saja, bagaikan barang yang sudah tidak ada artinya lagi. Saat dia baru menyadari bahwa dia tidak benar-benar saat dia mengatakan suka dan sayang kepada kita, karena dia masih menyimpan rasa kepada orang di masa lalu nya?

Well, all I wanted to say was... Aku suka kamu. Kamu? (Tidak)

Z